Some grief is the price of loving someone who chose the wrong road
1 Samuel 15:11, 35
"I regret that I have made Saul king, for he has turned back from following me and has not performed my commandments." And Samuel cried to the LORD all night. ... And Samuel did not see Saul again until the day of his death, for Samuel grieved over Saul. And the LORD regretted that he had made Saul king over Israel."
Which part of this passage feels closest to something you are carrying right now?